I had to come to work at night yesterday, and prolly today too.
Got some adhoc paperwork to work on.
I missed playing with kids. To make things worse, when i reached home, the house was cluttered with toys, sawda’s soiled with poo pant were put into the laundry basket (by umar), then sawda woke up and vomitted, the dining table were full of dirty dishes and cups, MIL hadn’t had dinner yet only god knows what she was waiting for.
Everything was so exhausting.
Thus, i turned into a monster.
I yelled at the kids, hamzah kena pukul, i think the husband was mad too but he tried to ignore.
I hate it when i cannot control myself.
I left the kids the whole day, and that was the only time i got o see them, and what did i do?
Yell at them.
I feel bad.
I know i was supposed to be thankful that the husband took care of the kids when i was gone.
I am yet to thank him personally, however i hope that by buying nescafe for him last night can be considered as compensation.
I worked extra hard today, completed our part for the paperwork, praying hard that i don’t have to come again tonight.
I hope others work hard as well.